Monday, February 15, 2010's progress

I'm feeling pretty good after this last week. I think I'm making progress at least. I've been for the most part able to keep up with my Bible reading plan. The only time I got behind was over the weekend (ie. Friday & Saturday.) I managed to get caught up tonight and I really feel like I'm learning. My Bible reading plan I'm doing is in chronological order rather that straight through the books. It's pretty interesting. I just finished Job and learned about the threshing floor and it's significance. I love how it represents the picture of marriage and the covenant that God has made with us. It's amazing how deeply significant everything is in the word.

I find it funny when I talk with other Christians and they bring up Bible stories that they learned as children to explain a situation. I just look at them dumbfounded. I didn't grow up going to church and getting to learn all of the Bible stories and songs that come from Sunday school classes. I feel bad about it sometimes, but I just have to realize that God has a plan for my life now and not to focus on the past too much. It's just really hard some days when I want to teach and sing some of those cute little Sunday schools songs with my son and I don't know any. I've come to the conclusion that in the near future, he'll be teaching me them and I just smile to myself.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Epic Fail not a huge epic fail, more like a set back. I was doing great, keeping up on my Bible Study, reading my Bible readings for each day, and working on the Love Dare with my man, then BAM! I fall in the driveway when we got ice and bruise my tailbone. Okay, so a few days I'm down and can't do much because I can't even sit correctly. Then Justin, my husband, gets sick and he's down while I'm trying to heal. Let me just tell you we were a hot mess together. So, I start to get to feeling better and then I get food poisoning. Yep, I know, I think I'm a magnet for any ailment.

So, I'm starting over. Okay, not completely. I'm picking up where I left off and getting a new focus. I had an epiphany in the car on the way home from the grocery tonight. Isn't it kind of ironic that I have these things that are setting me back, when I decide to make a commitment to get a closer relationship to God. I think that Satan has a scheme and plan when he thinks he has a hold on someone. Even the small things that he has a hold of, he's not willing to let go without a fight. I get it. So, I was listening to a cd of my favorite music right now, Jimmy Needham, and the lyrics to the song sent me into a full emotional meltdown in the car.

I have built a city here
Half with pride and half with fear
Just wanted a safer place to hide
I don’t want to be safe tonight

I need You like a hurricane
Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I’m only Yours now
I need you like a burning flame
A wild fire untamed
To burn these walls down
I’m only Yours now
I’m only Yours now

I am Yours and You are mine
You know far better than I
And if destruction’s what I need
Then I’ll receive it Lord from Thee
Yes, I’ll receive it Lord from Thee


And it’s Your eye in the storm
Watching over me
And it’s Your eye in the storm
Wanting only good for me
And if You are the war
Let me be the casualty
‘Til I’m Yours alone
I am only Yours
I am Yours alone, Lord


Come be my hurricane
Jimmy Needham - Hurricane

It's true, if destruction is what  I need, then I'll receive it Lord from thee.
I'm a work in progress.